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Friday, August 28, 2015

Great News!

Dear Readers,

I am happy to report that the preliminary report of my daughter's condition suggests that she does not have cancer. Wow. That was so simple to say. It doesn't even hint at all the angst that has roiled in me for the last near month.

My daughter is 32. But, lying there in the hospital bed, she still looked like my little baby to me. Each time she had an interaction with a healthcare provider, I felt like the proverbial mother bear. I wanted to grab and shake anyone who didn't give her the "proper" attention. I wanted to micro manage and be an over bearing pain in the ass. I mean, really, this was MY kid. I made her. No one was going to make her feel bad unless they went through me first. Yes, it was surprising to me how I felt. Luckily, her team was wonderful in the extreme.

My daughter had cause to go to the emergency room about a month ago. After a CT scan of her abdomen, everyone involved was left with the distinct impression that she had ovarian cancer. She was referred to a GYN who also told us she had cancer. At the very least, the doctor said, she would never have kids again. It was that news which disturbed my daughter the most. I was slapped back a few times. I took it for granted that I had three wonderful kids, and here she was faced with having none. I sat with her, intensely feeling her pain as one pregnant lady after another came through the office. What a torture... I can only imagine. I sat, worrying for her life, yet keeping up a strong front. There she sat, mourning the children she would never have.

Next we visited a GYN oncologist. Here was our first breath of hope. He wasn't convinced it was cancer. So, we waited for the day of surgery and the final verdict. We each had our own way of dealing with our issues. Funny that we both threw ourselves into work. Like mother, like daughter.

I had plenty of time to worry about what might happen. I had plenty of time to think about our lives together. I'd love to say that it has always been good and easy. However, mothers and daughters typically do not have a history of easy relationships. We had our bumps. We are over them now, but there was a time when we didn't even speak. I know that she feels that I let her down in some respects. We have agreed to disagree and we just do not discuss the things that bring us to loggerheads. Having this scare in our lives, I think, has made us closer. I think she knows that I will always have her back. No matter what she will always be my little girl.

Thank you all for the messages and prayers. :) ((HUGS))


8 comments:

  1. I'm so, so thrilled to hear that news. What a huge relief that is to you and your family. I've lost my sister (brain aneurysm) and parents. Now I have two close friends that are very sick, one of them right now in ICU struggling for his life. It sure puts disagreement and arguments into perspective. We are all entitled to our opinions and each of us is different. Life is way to short, I'm a learning to not take those wonderful moments that we share with each other for granted.

    Hugs to you - Kate

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    1. Thank you Kate and truer words were never said. You have to let the little things go... life is too short. I'm so sorry to hear about your friends. It is a real challenge to get through the death or illness of a loved one. I don't know about you or anyone else but sometimes I think empathy is a curse- or, at least a burden. Sometimes the pain is almost unbearable. As bad as I felt for my daughter, I can't even imagine losing her. I lost my parents and that was really tough- but a child? I'm just so happy she is ok.

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  2. Wonderful news. I am so happy for you and your family !

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    1. Thank you so much. :) We're all very happy for her.

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  3. Praise God that prayers were answered! Here is a great BIG hug!

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    1. Yes! Thank you, Gina! I feel like I have been given a gift. :)

      Went out for the day with my daughter on her birthday the other day. She needed to get out of the house and move around. I took many moments to be thankful for her good health. I would be devastated without her.

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  4. Oh my. So happy for how that turned out.

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